Gaslighting Myself: Learning to Trust My Intuition & Stop Self Doubting

I am my biggest gaslighter. I assume I am always reading people entirely wrong, until they state explicit and clear words to my face about how they are feeling. And even then, I don't trust them. Or myself, so there's just a sense of uncertainty all around me. Up until recently, I have never trusted my feelings. I am still learning to trust them completely, but I am totally fed up with gaslighting myself and am making a conscious effort to correct that.

It is absolutely DRAINING thinking I am wrong all the time. Wrong in work, relationships, life trajectory - you name it, I doubt it. But I'm done. I won't die on any hills any time soon but when it comes to trusting myself, my judgment and my choices, I am on MY side. Even if I end up being wrong, at least I bet on myself. Cause who else is going to? I'm obviously not dead in a ditch somewhere so even my "wrong" choices haven't been so detrimental...

So many people think they're right all the time and have told me how I am feeling, thinking, being like, etc so now it's MY turn to do that. I might be overcorrecting by being a delusional know-it all but I am fully embracing that era. Instead of gaslighting myself, I am going to just simply believe what I believe is to be true.

So this is a PSA to everyone in my life or who I will come across: I'M right and you are... also right. Because life is not so black and white and two opposing things can be true at the same damn time. If you don't have the word "nuance" in your vocabulary, don't talk to me until you do.